was late for school today.
an incident happened, hopefully th matter will not be brought up.

initially didn't wanna turn up upon hearing that detention is still will be going on.
but madel's mom doesn't allows so hence we went.
did many runs and lines.
many thanks to my dearest esther !

she helped w my lines as i'm a slow poke.

i love my esther lots lots laa.

many of my classmates were kinda upset over th aces' day event.
reasons heard from many was that my class supposingly got 2nd but becos of some green eyed monster accusing that our class had cheated, we were forfeited.
hey c'mon, doesn't mean that our class is a "girl class" which most people sees as, we don't have th ability to win.

we have th man in us.
cheer ups all. ：）

as long as you all are self conscious that will be enough.

afterwards was th teacher's day celebration.
went to get th movie gift voucher from ms leo and went to help out in th prefects.

hip-hop. ：）

gastric was agonizing me last night. ：（

had our last maths lesson w ms liow today...
how sad. she is a great teacher !
mock exam paper was given to us as homework ! YAY.

FINALLY, choir today.
pathetically, only 10 turned up.
it's really a bore to have sucha small choir.
it was bloody stuffy in there w only one air-con functioning.

我好累。：（
tears welled in my eyes, you wasn't here when i need you.

rainy rainy day.

shared umbrella w hui en and li qin. heh
thanks, or i'll be drenched.

esther came to my place as theres early dismissal.
afterwards, i went to meet my baby.

81.89.80.59 ??

my lovely cousin.

thanks baby for th morning call and th marsh-mallows.
sorry to wendy for being unable accompany you to be late because i was already in school when you called me and if i were to be late i'll be down for two hours of detention. duibuqi.

first lesson was fnn.
ms tay was absent. heh
hence, today's fnn was relaxing.

baby came over to my place.
played th bunny game w him.
he said he will break my record but he didn't. hees x)
xin hui called and wanted to come up my house to do her project w jennifer.
but cannot ! cos i have to meet th others at five.
she wanted me to call her back but i didn't have her contact ! so, sorry.

had a so called party for venessa w teng teng, esther, daphanie, venessa and eunice at eunice's house.
they made sushi.
played pool.
it was already late at night thus they insisted me to take bus home w them.
enjoyed today, thanks for th dinner. ：）

last mock exam on wednesday and also w ms liow !

i'm famished.
i wannnnnnnnnt eat lamb chop ! T.T

girl, i'm really worried for you.
do you know how much you've changed?
please do cherish yourself, or no one ll.

homeworks.

- overdued english proposal.
- overdued english comprehension.
- overdued chemistry worksheet(s).
- fnn coursework.
- fnn discussion and conclusion.
- poa worksheets.
- maths assignment(s).
- tuition homeworks.

i'll just have a be a little hardworking yea?

chatted on phone w baby till around 4 th previous night.
cos w/o him coaxing me to sleep, i can't sleep soundly ! heh.

wohaoxiangni.

There's nothing wrong with treating yourself to a splurge every once in a
while, but be sure that you maintain harmony between what you want and what
you
can afford. Your eyes may be bigger than your wallet right now, and if
you push
things too far, you may get a nasty surprise in the form of an
unexpected bill
or an emergency payment. Watch your spending, and challenge
yourself to tighten
your budget. Reduce your material desires, and you will
reduce your
headaches.

i wannnnnt ben & jerry's sweet cream and cookie ~
i wannnnnt famous amos's choco chip cookie ~
i wannnnnt muffins ~
i wannnnnt cakes ~
i wannnnnt bubble milk tea ~
i wannnnnt chocolates ~
i wannnnnt biscuits ~
i wannnnnt green tea ~
i wannnnnt chips ~
i wannnnnt crackers ~
i wannnnnt ..........

out of sudden, i have this huge strong craving for comfort food.
TSK. i haven't replenish it yet.
sighed ~ i am darn low now.
i don't know why.
but i felt so so glad that they aren't upset w me. heh
true friends don't hold on a grudge yea? ：））

i can hardly get contented.
how often i'll got upset over silly matters.
thus, i'm not a very happy person.
i couldn't be.
argh. how i wished that i could be a happy teen.
i would really lik to lead a happy life.

alrights, talk about today.
went out w daphoney and eunice ~
went ta town and bugis.
meet w honey first and meet eunice there.
honey and eunice bought little miss tees.
they helped esther and venessa to get theirs too.
how popular is little miss tees nowadays uh.
many people are getting it.
carrie bought two th previous week when she's out shopping w me.
but i didn't get mine ! becos.. actually i've no idea why too.
HA-HA. maybe partly of baby? as he often complains that i am a spendthrift.
maybe his words already caused sucha huge impact on me? alalalala.
okays, i shouldn't splurge too much money on those inessential stuffs either.
money is hard to earn and i should have spare a thought for mommy !
so.. i should learn how to shop and save. hahahahahahaha !
shopped around and went to bugis.
time is really tight as we each had a curfew.
eunice is extremly cute when she's at bargaining.
th lady also very funny, she insisted that is th cheapest then eunice at last gave her notes and schillings. she's short of 30 cents so she told th lady she no money already then that lady told her to go bang wall in hokkien.
even th aunty behind us who overheard th conversation was also laughing.
amos joined us at bugis street.
but we went separate ways after sometime.
got in contact w smokes and my eye is sore and feels irritated.
it got so bloody red. but was lucky as it didn't get swollen.
went to th washroom and clean my eye and
it was alright afterwards ：）
thanks honey for concern.
took train back w honey. legs were aching.
whee, no blisters for me today ! :))
as i've so many plasters around ! heh.
accompany honey to meet esther.
afterwards baby came to fetch me home.
supposingly he should be able to have a great time bbQ-ing but th rain just ruin it. how sad.



did enjoyed my day out w daph and eunice ：）

now's already 00:48
waiting still. bye ~


aww ~ i'm hungry. T.T

a very happy birthday to my ko ai-s, mei yan.

are we still friends? :(

met baby in th morning.
supposingly we were late for school but th gate wasn't shut. heh

venessa wasn't feeling well during th morning.
she threw up th candies that she had ate.
get well soon okays? <3

during recess.
met w baby as he had been released after doing his prelims.
he gave a pack of tissue.
why? becos..
i seriously have to pinch him on his cheeks !

argh. got back that poa paper.
failed. mmm, by a few marks.
how disappointed.

skipped english class as it was th last lesson and it was a relieve teacher who came in.

went for a haircut w esther just now !
aw. i felt kinda sad cos i find baby don't lik.
i also felt that esther didn't really lik hers too.
but to me it's stil alright as i've already got used to different hairstyles.

went to lot together w ching.


to baby :
i'm sorry that i didn't have time for you today.

to ko ai :
cheer up alrights? gaga loves you.

argh. i flunk my chinese by one mark !
oh my. did a make up test for poa today w kaixiang.
haven't revise ! oh my.
but hopefully i won't flunk too badly?

was nearly late for school i guess?
slept really late these past few days.
argh. dark eye rings ; eye bags.

for th whole day in school, esther was lik making me laugh lik mad.
she told me many lame stuffs and that made me laugh non-stop.

baby came to my house !
oo. first time i brought my bf home !
x)

homeworks, homeworks, i'm gonna complete all of you !
hopefully.

since you do not have th guts to say it into my face,
you have no
rights to correct us.
And c'mon peeps, are you ignorant?
words aren't
copyrighted ok.
learn it. :)
A bunch of childish fools who's lik so old yet being so immature.
HA-HA. i despise sucha faker lik you.
don't you feel tiresome?
regardless of your pretty face, you just looked horrible to me.
a blackhearted person will never look beautiful.

just returned home from his house !
okays, it's just one road across.
guess what we did?!
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we played monopoly !
heh. and obviously i won ! *claps*
was kinda bored there cos his computer can't be used ! aww ~
something wrong w it? mmms.

hunny was so sweet to me. <3
she put plaster for me ! and i put for her too !
as both of us have blisters. aww

muffins that were made during fnn.



happy famaeli. lalala



loveeeeeee ESTHER :)

happy 01st month ! x)

arghhh. feeling so frustrated.
so many homeworks and test.
that stupid fnn coursework ! argh.

....

and i've been sneezing for th whole day.
i guess it's due to those burnings and now i am allergic.
stil, i can't have my medicine w/o my homeworks being complete !
arghhhh, i am so tired ! :(

i just have to be alittle hardworking.

went out w my darla carrie.
how nice of her to come to my house and waited. :x
went fareast.
carrie is so nice, she offered to exchange shoes w me as my blister hurts
until i bought plasters.
:)
afterwards we went to bugis.
walked around.

i'm just too tired.
i need a break. i don't wanna c'tinue carrying that heavy load.
it's too stressful.
why can't i be just a little hardworking?
haish. why didn't i see th concern from you.
th concern from th person i really need.
maybe i'm just a nuisance to you? ♥
:'(((



i often ask, do you really love me?

you'll learn when you fall.
it goes th same lik you'll never know if you never try.
don't get slowed down by something that doesn't worth.
in life, there'll always be ups and downs.
there are also many perspectives, depending on how you gonna look on.
be it being happy or feeling dejected it's still a day.
so how about facing it positively?
always live th fullest of your life.
even though you've met a obstacle,
move on bravely.
appreciate what you have now before you regret.
and by then, it's too late.

don't be dishearten. :)

was absent for school.
th reason is that i didn't feel lik taking my poa test.
i'm afraid i might fail it.
i've already failed so much and i didn't want to fail this too.

i do intend to go after all.
but my father is still in th toilet at 7:20? and it is raining heavily.
so i forgets about it.

supposingly meeting esther but mommy don't allow me to go.
sighed. just felt so gloomy.

esther came to my house and gave me my homeworks.
BLAH BLAH BLAH.
then both of us went down and she had her lunch.
afterwards we went slacking around.
killing th time before she needs to work.

MET HIM.

i felt so hopeless.
i wanna suicide.
but i fear, i didn't have th courage to.
i wanna have my own freedom.
i feel useless.
i'm sucha black sheep.
i am lousy.
i wanna be happy.
i wanna cry.
i wanna bleed.

i wanna start anew.
i wanna be perfect w/o flaws.
i'm just a host of imperfection.

i hope, everything will be just fine.

heh. went to causeway w him to watch SECRET.
though i've watched before, but as i had promised him.
it was still nice! heh.

was almost late for school.
reached there in the nick of time and
saw qingaiderhs alighted from th bus.
thus walked in w her.
x)

sighed. really felt low at times.
results was really lousy.
i often wonder. how am i going to be promoted?
i wanted to give up.
but if i do, nobody will be able to help me anymore...

what a day.
was late again.
should be getting dentention today.
but th 2nd time w th letter aknowledged by parents wil be excused.
HEH.

i wanna apologise to many.
those who i some sort gave attitude to.
those who i've gave empty talks to.
i'm truly sorry.




mine, esther's and meiyan's. <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAPHANIE !
<33333333333333333333S.

Oh, nearly forgotten about it.
esther and mei yan wants me to post that
我最最最。。。爱MEI YAN
AND ALSO 我最最最。。。爱ESTHER.
not forgetting th rest too..
<3 ching, daph, bei, zhu, tang, jimei.

Thanks Sanly for helping me w th tagboard !
much appreciated.
x)

I am gloomy.

:(


I've tried to cry, but i can't.
Maybe, I should bleed.

You'll never notice.

T.T

my little piglet is staying overnight w dar dar.

don't ill treat it ok?

ok OK ok??

everyone says esther and me look alik.

well, everyone has their own twin !

Changed A New Blogskin Finally.

okays. today i shall stay at home.
had been going out continuously in a row.
theres many many stuffs that i have to complete !
common test are down th lane for next week.
maths common test is tomorrow.
chem and phys th next two days.
supposingly i guess there wil be a maths mock exam on wednesday??
maybe i should do some revision?
hoping i'll. ><

homeworks.
all those undone homeworks.
aww. poa a/c, tuition homeworks, maths and many more which i can't recall.
but most importantly, my fnn coursework.
grr. i hate it.
haven't touch it since last week.
and i have soooo much to complete...
wil touch it later on i think?

had a fruitful week.
:)

I'm.Missing.You.Badly

i miss my pig pig so much !
there ll be only you in my heart.
just you and no one esle. x)

i loveeeeeeeeee you !

went to visit a relative straight away after my tuition.
took cab to bpp and walked past a pet shop.
i was then so fascinated for th bunnies.
aww. it was super duper cuteee.
my dear fluffy had ald left me for a week.
sent to th zoo if i'm not wrong? lol.
my poor fluffy, i miss you !


went to my big grandma house.
when we first came out from th escalator.
saw a dog barking fiercely next door.
then followed by a little dog.
it was my big grandma's dog.
a mini sized dog.
it was ultra cuteeee ok.


left and went to bpp to meet my uncle and his family.
went to visit that pet shop again.
that bunny that i like cost 280 bucks.
i wannnnnnnt.
T.T

whee. went out w eunice, ven and esther !
sadly, my daphoney didn't managed to turn up.
but stil, we managed to entertain ourself and made today enjoyable.
wore slippers there as my foot was lik rotting w many many painful blisters ard.
it looked really ugly, but i'm left w/o choice.

was woken up by esther's morning call.
but this little sleepyhead went back to sleep.
so ultimately i was a little late.

had our breakfast at th macdonalds.
slept ard 2 yesterday and thats why i'm so freaking tired.
was exhausted.

al of us wore red.
including amos who was there for th breakfast.
that was our theme for today. aha

went to cineleisure to catch a movie.
before th movie starts, we went to th arcade to kill time.
we watched SECRETS, by jay chou.
it was really extremly soul touching.

after th movie, we went to th esplanade.
eunice had accidently kicked my toe w her high heel and it bleed.
argh. now my precious foot is w many many manybloody injuries.
ugly.

we went back to yt as eunice have to leave early.
reached yt and went to mac and ordered some refreshments.
chit chatted awhile and some npcc regenites approached me asking to help them to take photos.
at first i was so so embarrassed because i clicked something wrong
and then my whole face went blushing red.
argh. lousy me.

eunice and venessa left.
leaving esther and me dead bored.
we can't go anywhere further as it was ald 9 so we decided to kill th rest of th time at lot.
slacked ard and left to meet my little pig pig.

heh. people said that esther and me are TWIN.

happy 42th bday Singapore !*

whee. just returned home from
cineleisure.
saw familiar faces today.
went out w my most dearest pig.
intending to go to th esplanade to watch th fireworks but it's way too over
crowded.
thus we went to meet his friends and went to cineleisure.
went
kbox.
felt kinda awkward because i'm th only female there.
and theres so
many of them. ard 10?
initially felt stranger,
but was feeling quite
alright afterwards as they are friendly peoples.
heh. hopefully i didn't
dampen their spirits.
left earlier w dar as he was afraid that my mom wil
mind.
took cab home.
th driver seemed to be very careful.
ahahahaha.

mommy knows that i'm going w him.
felt less stress.
x)

going out with daph, eunice, venn and esther tomorrow !
so i should
rest earlier. YAWN-S
goodnights !
and loveeeeeeeee you dar.

had
a great day w you.
didn't felt bored ok.

alrights, meeting wendy in
our lala land.

whee. went shopping w my dearest esther !
went fareast.
ultimately was broke.
argh argh argh.
spent my own savings ok.
how i wish i can shop w/o worries.
free flow of $$.
heh. fat hope.

took train there and took bus back.
amazingly, i recognised th route.
we nearly took th train over.
when th train is at orchard esther asked me wher are we now.
we can't hear it as th train was noisy.
so i asked esther to ask a lady standing.
she told us it's orchard and we rushed out.
luckily th door was opened long enough.
th lady and some passenger was laughing.
-.-lll

shop shop shoped!
went to lot w esther as she needs to buy bday presents for her friend.

school was so damn today.
went to school late on purpose
knowing that th school is celebrating for national day.
and because they told us not to bring our bags,
i've forgotten to bring my prefect badge and tie.
but who knows why shantini called me early in th morning when i was sleeping.
did saw her missed calls but was lazy to call back.
thought that it wasn't important as she didn't gimme a message.
oh what th f*ck.
went to th parade square and saw mr chen from far and he saw me too.
knowing that he will talk to me about why am i late.
who knows that th prefects had to be at th parade square.
no one informs me ok.
got reprimanded by him and ms chew was beside him.
FINE. i was at fault
but when mr chen had finished his talk
ms chew called me to remove my ear rings lahhhhhhh.
asshole. i've wore that ear ring
for lik damn long and yet she didn't ask me to take it off so i assumed that i
can wear it and it's lik so normal.
why does she have to tell me just after
getting reprimanded?
some other students can wear even exaggerate ones,
so why don't you tell them instead?
does she have to say it infront of mr chen?
thinking i had'nt had enough?
isn't that on purpose?
)(*&^%$£!
pissed off.
stil, i kept quiet and took off.
went to sit with my class and i guess my face was super black then.
T.T

I.HATE.MS.CHEW

theres performance.
and choir was th last item.
had to sing 4 national songs infront of th school.
was in a fluster upon hearing little choir members are coming to perform.
was embarrassed to go up to sing, but i'm left w/o choice.
cos if th lesser people going up, it turn out more lik a laughing stock.
thus, madel, ching and me went up.
al eyes was looking at us. o.o
many was laughing at joyce.
she really seemed lik she wanna take th microphone so much.
i held on tightly to qingaiderhs' hand.
was extremly nervous.
had sweaty palms.
slowly, th crowd seemed to be
more supportive and i felt not that tense anymore.
sang and ms lo said "good!"
actually thought that she would scold us for being so timid.
:)

hey, SANLY LIM KIM ZHU.
bombed me.
T.T

congrats to my class three six for achieving 100% for th fund raising.
th only class that topped 100%.
what a rich class isn't it?
heh.
x)

after th performance i went to had my
make up mock exam w hunny and qingaiderhs.
esther waited for me!
quite tough? but was fun.
ahaha. al of us chatted with ms liow alot.
previously she was a police! hard to believe rights??
ahahahahahahahahaha.
she offered us chocos.

i wanna go shopping again.
i haven't get enough of shopping. aww~

i don't see why theres a need for people to say nasty words to others?
don't you feel miserable?
can't you keep your mouth shut?
you're just a green eyed monster.
you're so pathetic i can tel.
sometimes, somethings can't be envy.

and i don't see why theres a need to toy w others feelings?
nobody is a replacement ok.
what goes ard comes ard.
do not give talks if you can't fulfil it, empty talker.
you'll soon get your karma, you bastard.



hello, i am a cat.
not a monkey.
i mew.
byeee !

argh. just woke up
stil feeling extremly tired.
was awake by esther's call.
was having a bad allergy for th whole day !
feel so weak now.
morning father came into th toilet when i'm inside and take his stuffs with a cigg...
and that's how my allergy relapse.
was desperate for tissue then.
thanks peeps for th tissues ! heh.
honey, venn, madel, ching and ms liow.
much appreciated. x)

had a chem test today.
i cannot remember th formula to use on which.
:(

whee. i passed my maths test.
okays. just passed, 10/20.
better than none.
theres only 9 passes in our class for that paper.
i actually don't know how did i passed.
i actually know nothing about it.
glad. :)
after school had a retest for that chapt.
hopefully i wil get a better mark?
and those around me will too ! :)

there wil be a make up mock exam for madel,
ching and me tomorrow.
i guess i'll do badly for that?
mock exam really sucks big time.
:(

mommy was nagging at me for sleeping very late every night.
she says that i'll wil retain.
haish. i don't want.
it's just a wasting of time.
ahahahaha.
agatha, study hard ! i know you can !
okays, i know i'm talking to myself again.
lalala.

i'm just plain lazy.
but for my future sake.
i have to really buck up.
i should lessen th time for cpu.
complete my homeworks.
and a least do some revising?
sleep early, sleep more. ahaa

went home straight away after th test.
didn't go for prefect meeting too.

hopefully chun kiat will get well soon ! :)

lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
lalalalalalalalalalalalalala

i'm gonna go out with my bei bei~
i'm gonna go out with my qingaiderhs~
i'm gonna go out with my dearest pig~
i'm gonna go out with my sweetest honey~
and my laziest zhu.
i'm going to go out with many many peoples.
as in i want.

do you know how i always felt?

am feeling blue ~
very blue now ~
feeling blue ~
HAISH.
what am i gonna do?
what am i really thinking of?
dreaming of?
wondering of?
fearing of?
speechless.
what a pathetic past i had.

i just had to fear on.
till theres no them anymore.

whee. saw my pig pig finally.
had been two days since we last seen each other.
of cos i've missed him terribly.

met pig pig and walked together with him to school. :)
both of us was late.
got away for th rounds because pig had to go for his prelim.

had maths test.
didn't know how to answer.
:(

chemistry lesson was as usual packed doing non-stop.
had to file up my file by tuesday ! argh.
my file is in a great mess.

during poa lesson we was given p & l a/c and balance sheet to do.
was stressed up. but did understand alot now :)
and thanks esther for helping to complete yesterday's accounts.

went to gym with daph, eunice and esther after school.
afterwards we went to macdonalds to have our lunch.
pig was with us to mac too. :)
lalala...

spent more time with pig !
as we didn't have time in th morning.
x)

went causeway with esther yesterday.
had been quite some time since we went out.
intended to study. but ultimately got distracted
thus ended up shopping. heh
saw wendy, ade and rena there too.

had to get th fnn coursework done on monday.
how sad. :(((((
and common tests are down th lane.
argh. ultra sad.

<3 honey, qingaiderhs, ko ai-s, dear, hunny, zhu, ji mei and my tang.
and last but not least my dearest pig pig !*

You Are a Night Person

For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

i miss my DAR.

my DAR.

had been two days we're not seeing each other because...

i'm too busy and when i'm free he is happily sleeping soundly lik a pig !

and dar fell sick?

haish.

get wel soon. :)

and it's lik my fault?? erm....

hopefully wil get to see him tomorrow if he gets better?

and not forgetting...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CARRIE ZHU ! :P

whee. had a great day today.

though was late for school today.
woke up very late. i thought i could make it on time
but was stil late.
had to walk 7 rounds. :(

heh. skipped ss with daph, esther, lienching, madel, venn and eunice today.
out of boredom, we tried killing time by doing al sorts of kinda lame stuffs.
fooled around. it was really fun

went to choir just now and it was so dead.
it doesn't seem lik a choir.
doesn't seem lik one.


you and me
we used be together
everyday together
always
i really feel
that i'm losing my best
friend
i can't believe
this could be th end
it looks as though you're letting go
and if it's real
well i don't want to know.
♥