June Holiday

It's holiday, but however there is an extended programme running.

Thus, had to attend school on the weekdays for two weeks.
And, among all the classes, four-six have the longest schedule.

Start early and end late. [...]

Attended Adam Khoo's Learning Strategy Programme on 28th May - 29th May.
The duration is damn long okay.
From eight in the morning till eight in the night, half a day.
Haven't been sleeping alot so didn't really wanna tire myself for attending it.
However, on the thought of having paid $100 for the programme, decided to attend.
Hahaha.


We had three hilarious trainers - Melvin, Leroy and Andrea.
Practically, everybody was just laughing their lungs out during the programme.
Also, we had two groupings named by Melvin - Ku Ku Bird and Na² Pok.
I was in the Ku Ku Bird group, laughs.

Melvin showed us the slides of the "Snake Baby" which is babies that was born with a disease called Harlequin ichthyosis.

Went to Youtube and watched the clips and it's really heart wrenching.
To think that we are really fortunate people.

Yes, there's this segment of the programme which Melvin had all our eyes closed in the pitch dark range and wanted us to imagine stuffs and such.
Heard Madeline sniffing with the mucus sound very soon when it was only at the beginning of his story.
Prolly she was the first who cried.
I think almost everyone cried?
Well, i didn't.
I wasn't disturbed by his psychology.
Ahahaha, call me steel heart ! ;D

I was then starting to feel bored and decided to peep around.
Saw Sanly, who was seated infront of me taking out her tissue paper and wiping her face.
Hehe, didn't know that she was weak.

Shall c'tinue my post tomorrow !
I'm soooo sleepy.
Shall sleep after finishing my cheesecake ! :)
Yaaaaaawn.

Overdue photo


Woke up and had this dream left vividly in my mind
- You apologised to me when you realised that you've actually left me wounded for so long...

I don't know whether am i thinking too much or what...
Just don't wanna think too much now, my priority is this coming Monday's Mt "O" level paper !

I'm gonna score well !
I will, i must and i cannnn.

I'm not going to hug the buddha leg again at the 11th hour.
Lol, otherwise i will Cry Out Loud.

Do wish me luck ! (:

Tree, Leaf and Wind

葉子的離去，是風的追逐，還是樹的無挽。

Tree

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U. There's one girl who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, and doesn’t have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary girl.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my girl, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watches me chase after girls, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile and said "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes were filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laughs and joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I knew who that guy was. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy filled with full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile and congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down and cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then.

It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.

I like him and I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he doesn’t like me, why does he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a girl to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompanies me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. He pursuit me relentlessly, everyday. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Wind

Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that can blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors and me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with girls there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like her like to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amiss. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled and accepted the note. The next day, she appeared and passed me a note and left.

“Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away”

“It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree”

I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me and accept my presents and phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. I hugged her tightly after she opened the door.

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Fish and water

The Fish said,
"You cannot see my tears in my eyes
because I am in the water."

The Water said,
"I can feel your tears in your eyes
because you are in my heart."

Mother Tongue O's in 10 days.

I failed MYE MT P1
Ms Chiang comment：“做人不要拖泥带水”。
I must improve for my speed for thinking and writing !
加油！！！

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生日快乐。

It have been a long time since i've posted.
And till now, i am somehow unsure of how to start a post.
Shall briefly summaries the events that happened during this period of time.


Firstly, happy mother's day to all mommies.
Dined w/ my family and relatives on Sunday.
The food was unhygienic.
My uncle found part of a cockroach in the fried rice, my sister found a strand of white hair in the vegetables and there was a dish that was uncooked.


Went to Kfc w/ Ya Xin, Mei Yan and Lien Ching for our breakfast on Friday after our last paper - Fnn. Aftermath, i went to have my haircut.


Town-ed and Bugis w/ T yesterday as it was our marking day.
Bought a pair of shorts and a dress for $59 and the rest of the expenditure was on food.


Mid year examinations had ended on Friday
and the papers was distributed back to us today.
*Shook heads*
My results are atrocious.



Blue, blue, blue.