lalala.
i love mei yan's and my bebe,
agayanongtanmeitha.
heh.

argh. i miss you
missing you heaps, truckload, many, alot, extremly, very, much, greatly,
awfully, dreadfully, terribly, most, multitudinous, dearly...
wher have you been to actually?? :(

words have been revolving in my mind...

miss__________________miss

miss miss miss_________miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss_____miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss miss_miss miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss miss

miss miss miss

miss

.

wher have you been to?
what are you doing??
are you alright???
feeling irresistible.

nothing could actually express th feeling i'm feeling towards you !
i love you as high as i can reach ! high up th sky.♥
x)

whee.
talk about yesterday.
went to esplanade to watch th performance with qingaiderhs which APTITUDE actually wanted to participate in.
we didn't manage to send in th demo by time, thus we dropped th idea 2 weeks ago.
but, we received a cal from them asking what song are we singing later on
& even skipped maths class and stayed in th toilet to talk about that.
BLA BLA BLA.
in th end, we dropped th idea of performing as th gm's attitude was poor.

and because qingaiderhs and me stil wanted to watch how others wil fare, we went.
was kinda late because i was slow and we had our lunch cum dinner at th long john.
reached there about 8:00 though it starts at 7:00.
i thought we went wrongly, because i heard sounds of instruments.
thinking that was a capella, how come there wil be instruments included?

it was actually th voice of th vocal percussionist.
it was so wow-wow. [dropping jaws]
was so fascinated for their wonderful performance. heh
esp for those vocal percussionists. oh my, oh my. [faints]
it was awesome, wonderful, perfect, niceee, fantastic, bombastic, fabulous, beautiful,
superb, flawless, excellent, supreme, impressive, impeccable, ultimate ! and whatever nice words you can think of.

th voice of th vocal percussionist kills me hardly.
how about me? [shook heads & sighed]
after th first one that we've seen.
they called out th next group.
was actually describing about that group was very special.
"each have special nicknames" was asking lienching that it was familiar.
"spending their free time singing to one another" why was it th same as my group?
"wil stil be together even after graduation" same?
"let's welcome APTITUDE!" LOL.
both of us bursted into laughters.
trying hard to control and kept quiet.
slowly there are sounds of groans and giggles.
how ashame.
it stil continues welcoming th next group.
BLA BLA BLA.
we left after listening to th last not didn't stayed for th results as it was late.
listened to only 3 groups.

we seemed very blur and sua gu. went missing several times =x
only when asked th guards, we then know our way.

went to th roof terrace,
saw many many couples. T.T
oh, nevermind.
from far, saw a big feris wheel.
aww, how niceeee x)




stil, th thought of their wonderful performance makes me to swallow my saliva.
luck, didn't went to be a laughing stock.

dar walked me home yesterday night. :)
loveeee you lots lots.

feeling terribly exhausted this morning.
i shall rest now.
goodbyes ! :)
down to my luck, shit.




loves my qingaiderhs,
incredibly much.
to th extreme.

你爱我吗？
你爱我吗？
你爱我吗？
你爱我吗？
你爱我吗？

i miss you.
:)

i miss my dar dar lots lots.
get wel soon oks?

<3.

mms, tomorrow.
i wish nothing wil happen to...

they'll be alright :)

chatted with my dar for th whole night !
can't bear to hang up with him. x)
dar, i really loveeeeeeeeeeee you.

i miss you dearly.♥

missing you.

receiving th message of yours made me having this terribly feeling which seriously torn me apart.

心情好糟哦。:(

sad sad sad sad.
i'm waiting again.
TSK, nevermind.
i'll be your understanding girlfriend.
T.T

i've tried to find back those memories.
but i can't. i can't recall back.
i don't know why am i acting weird.
but i know that...

It looks as though you're letting go.

2OO7O7.
heh.



those memories are enough to break me down.

i missed MEI MEI !
mei yan didn't come school today as she wasn't
feeling well today.
speedy recovery for you ! <3.

I am tired.
YAWNS.

I don't know why I seemed over sensitive today.
Sorry, I didn't want to.
I think alot.
Maybe I've lost confidence in relationships, I guess.
Sighed. But after talking things over with you, I felt that I'm alright. :)
Thanks for being understanding.

I'm now chatting with a super duper handsome, ultra cute and very cool guy.
How cool uh? heh.

argh. i didn't studied for my fnn test.
i guess i'll flunk again.
i'm way too slacking behind.
gotta buck up.

th duration for fnn is 1 hour for just 3 qns.
al of us didn't studied i guess?
i was so so bored then.
and because sally sng was behind us during lessons time thus we can't sms.
so i drew "WE LOVE SALLY".
okays, i was just doodling.
eunice seemed depressed.
she was playing with scissors. [...]

nowadays i found many people ard me seemed so depressed lah.
mei yan, eunice, madeline and many many.
cheer ups okays? :)

i fear. fearing you'd back out.
don't gimme false hope alrights?
I'll be broken.

why do you al have to rake it up?
i've already wanting to forget about everything.
if you've fallen for him, then go ahead and love him.
th path is yours, not mine. you do not have to ask for my permission.
and i don't love him nor lik. alrights?
seeing me feeling hurtful, are you happy?
if you are, you must be something wrong.
i know you're trying to be noble, but please cut out th act will you?
i don't need anyone to pity me.

haish.
you've forgotten about me already?
do you feel th same way as me??`
i'm feeling weary now.
you're th only person who kept me waiting.
how long are you going to keep me waiting?

whee. just came home.
dined out with my relatives.
quite a sumptuous one.

was worried sick for pig pig uh.
don't get into trouble oks?
miss ya you knows? x)
heh.

i love my darling lim kim zhu lots lots.
x)

heh.
after school, esther and me went to bugis.
SHOP SHOP SHOP x)
was super duper exhausted.
didn't get ample of sleep th previous night. aww.
almost fell asleep during poa lesson.
then esther sprinkled water on me. lol.

pe was fun today. :)

after school.
we took around two hours to get ourselves ready.
am so sorry to her.
tickled her and she dropped her eyeshadow. =x
opps.

took train there.
in th train, there was this little girl with her mommy who is extremly adorable
which caught esther's and mine attention.
and when it's their turn to alight th train.
that sweet little girl wanted to wave at esther as she was smiling to her
but she was unbalanced and she fell down.
she didn't cry. how strong x)

by then we reached there i'm already famished.
cause i only had a very light breakfast.
we had some bites at old chang kee
then we went to th bugis street.
nothing really caught our attention.
we're lik walking for a very long period of time but yet nothing really capture our attention.
so we went back to th junction.
saw QINGAIDERHS at traffic. x)
she's with HARVEY. heh.

we went to have our dinner cum lunch.
later on, we went to ICON.
which i got slaughter by this particular shop.
that women kept wanting us to try on her clothes.
last, bought a spag.

took train back to yew tee.
then went to mac.
because i wanted to see this so called CUTE AND QUITE HANDSOME GUY that eunice recently wanted to intro to me.
when i first look.
i saw a particular person who's mopping th floor.
it was that so called cute-and-quite-handsome-guy. [...]
i guess, i do not know how to appreciate. heh.

pig pig pig pig pig pig pig
pig pig pig pig pig pig pig
pig pig pig pig pig pig pig
x)

whee. glad that i'm at home
because my whole body from head to toes are aching.
sugar dreams! *YAWNS





lalala ~




*those truth that i didn't wanna know,
please don't force me to listen!

I think I'm lousy.
Being a loser, losing everyone whom i deeply loved.

:)

met MADEL very early in th morning!
did our homeworks. x)

as usual, th always LATE me.
was late.
sorry hunny, made you waited for so long. :P

i am so so early for school today. x)
people was shocked. lik once in a lifetime? lol.

after school stayed back for th mock exams luh.
was so so bored.
was late for that exam because th DANS took our time eating.
used th phone during th exam since ms liow didn't cared.
i even called Ji an and asked him how to do. =x
i can't consentrate luh. then i also don't know how to do.
so i call people to chat with because th rest are busy doing and have no time to entertain me. =x

afterwards went for choir.
actually didn't wanted to go.
but ms tay smsed me. [...]
but qingaiderhs and hunny didn't go luh.
choir was ULTRA bored today.
did th portfolio. luckily li yan was there to entertain me.
or esle i'll be bored to death uh.

<3.

heh.

la LA la.
sang for a few hours!
tired.

did our practical exam in th morning!
it was almost RUIN?
because venessa's oil "fly out" and hurt my hand.
then i ran away.
then my garlic wasn't in control and it burnt [...]
but overal it taste NICE. whee.

didn't had my breakfast, recess and lunch.
aw. i'm so so famished now.

after school, went for th meeting then after that went to record our demo!
i guess we did it? we did th whole song.
we kept repeating luh. because of me =x

my parts. [...]

not-so-nice.


my rabbit, restless since yesterday.


i had this a strong craving for famous amos cookie and shopping! argh.
i wanna go out ; shopping!
but, always i had this sick feeling.
so might as well stay at home.

i guess APTITUDE are going ta do th demo tomorrow??
we're already so late uh.
if we can't finish up th demo by tomorrow...
i guess, we can only say NEXT YEAR bahh.
so hopefully we can get it done by tomorrow!

thinking of tomorrow...
MONDAY BLUES. lol.
food and nutrition = BOREDOM.
gonna have practical test tomorrow.
hopefully, i won't ruin it. =x
tofu! . oh, my mom just taught me how to cook another dish of tofu just now.
so i'll cook that instead.
lalala.
we're having a test of what we had did in th mye for fnn too.
and i haven't studied.
maybe studying during th night?

maths homework wasn't complete yet again.
but i do know how to do already. :)
rrelieved. phew ~

haven't complete english compo too. =x
i guess i'll have to rush it whole night.
and about th hol's homework, should i do it??

* Holding on to my tears,
I know I'll be strong.

tears kept trickling down without control.
for th night and it continued in th morning.
bulgy eyes.
who understands??

whee. just got back home
from my sis wedding dinner !

woke up early in th morning.
didn't wanted to get up from bed because i knew that my eyes was swollen.
was shameful to be seen.
then don't know why i cried again.

at last.
i did get up and wash up.
but i wanted everyone in th room to get out first.
because i felt shame shame.

i'm so mad with my neighbour.
and i had enough ! asshole.
don't push your luck too much okays?
they came to our house w/o being invited.
their family. that house's grandma, and th two youngest grand-daughters are those people who aren't afraid to be shameful. they are so so greedy.
kept taking th foods lik nobody's business. they think buffet ar?
my aunt they al saw them that way gave that OO? look.
they walked in and walk out of my house and went in to rooms and rooms w/o any permission.
and their feets aren't clean and they went up to our beds. oh my.
can faint already.
that two don't know what should i say? idiotic or metality low uh?
one is ald SEC ONE another is pri 3
okays, that two dumby fed my RABBIT w/o permission luh.
and i don't feed my rabbit with CARROT.
later my rabbit got runs how?
fuck. nevermind about that carrot.
are they brainless or what? they fed my rabbit with TISSUE !
so thats why i can't tolerate man ! please lor.
they thinks as if as that is their house lik that.
makes my blood boil.
fuck fuck fuck.

arghhh.
fed up, fed up, fed up.

then i am not sociable one mars.
unlik my sis.
so don't talk lo.
so felt so bored LO.

BLA BLA BLA.

night time, we went to clarke quay to eat.
mm. and today was th first time i wore lik a girl.
my first time was shown to them ! lol. x)

BLA BLA BLA.

th end. 070707.

feeling dreamy now.
maybe of car sick?

sometimes i think maybe i'm just over sensitive that makes my life so miserable?
HAISH.

monday stil have to cook that tofu ~
SIANS.

i guess i'll be having tuition tomorrow?
had been weeks i've skipped tuition.
and th homework? untouched.

YAWNS*
early nights everybody ! x)

* everything vanished when th clock strikes 12.

whee. i've just came back from school.
how late isn't it? heh.
was so famish til now i get to eat my dinner cum lunch ! x)

talk about school !
lessons are as usual boring !
esp chem. i kept asking esther what's monoxide, trioxide, dioxide ! =x

and pe was extremly tiring for me !
didn't went for th nafa test th previous time.
so today was a make up lesson. aww
heh. we haven't did th standing broad jump.
and for that ! i had not been passing it for years.
how pathetic isn't it??

and and ! i've not grown taller ! x)
HAHA. glad

after school.
went to trim my fringe ! aww.
with th accompaniment of carrie and charlotte.
because tomorrow is my sis wedding !
070707, nice date uh?
wish my sis luck.
lalala.

after that went home and bathed .. BLA BLA BLA.
then met qingaiderhs and li yan. :)
together, we walked to school.

went to th lvl 3 and practice our A cappella song !
LAO SHU AI DA MI.
mine was th easiest i guess? dum dum dum.
then we went to th ava room to do our recording ! x)
sing sang sung.

then ms tay left.
but we continued to sing !

after so many many vocal practice.
i find it so fun ! x)

when we sang th song beautifully which was PERFECT.
a teacher came in ! and our recording was RUIN ! HAISH HAISH HAISH.
wanting to surprise ms tay ! but ...

just after he left.
ms tay came and we had to go for th regent idol performance.
choir did th back up voice.

GERALDINE won for th regent idol !
congrats. :)
and their class is so supportive of her ! touched.
hee. mie mie even teared when geraldine was announced to be th winner.
how touched rights?

I LOVEEE APTITUDE.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i have many many many many homeworks yet not done.
but stil, i don't feel lik doing it. [...]
cause i felt kinda tired everyday.

had vocal practice today and i felt so so so BORED.
didn't felt lik going, but tomorrow we need to do th demo.
i wonder wil we make it for th demo? hopefully.
dum dum dum. how bored.

had a rehearse with th regent idols again.
and they're gonna perform tomorrow.
and so are we. th back up voices.

played badminton too !
and i am so lousy in it. =x

* an hurtful impression you gave to someone can never be amended or be forgotten. even if one had forgives and forgets. because an unfolded heart wil always leave a mark.

today was super duper tiring !

drew dear, ko ai & qingaiderhs' hand during lessons time.
then ended up i got alot "ANG KONG" al over my right hand. lol.

had photo taking again after school.
this time w th prefectorial and choir.
th prefects were so crammed because there are too many of us.

had class photo taking today.
whee. esther was beside me!
after school went lot and had lunch with qingaiderhs at kfc.
she taught me how to do my physics homework! thanks qingaiderhs.
afterwards i went home and she went to meet her HARVEY.

my undone english holiday assignment =x
...

APTITUDE











have been seeing ms tay for 4 days!
she's always forcing me to sing to her! lalalala
kept repeating th song "lao shu ai da mi" to her just now.
...
i guess not only she's becoming mad, i am too!
teaching me is a very tiring job i guess? =x

was singing loudly or should i say screaming th song in my bathroom moments ago...
okays, i'm getting crazy.
or perhaps i'm feeling too bored.

ms tay wanted me to be there at 1000 to check th situation of th idol but not only i was late, i was even later than th actual timing =x
th first thing i woke up was to online.
but when i was awake, it was already 0947.
stil can online =x

got to rehearse with th regent idol then afterwards had vocal practice.
i found Joyce quite cute lehs =x
she is so kind lahh. madel forgetting her bag, leaving her bag at th hall but Joyce took it to th 3rd lvl for her.
kind but kiddy.

qingaiderhs came later.
& when she came.
AHA, it was her turn to repeat that song! lol.

after practice,
madel went to meet her bf.
li yan went home.
me? with qingaiderhs and ms tay.
was so funny luh.
had breakfast cum lunch at S11 with them
but at first qingaiderhs went to my house to change into her slippers.
ms tay waited outside my house. -.-
qingaiderhs and me was so quiet lo. -.-
three of us ate chicken rice! -.-
ms tay treated us green tea.
afterwards we went to lot.
until then, ms tay went separate ways with us.
searching for her bicycle i guess.

we took neoprints.
BLA BLA BLA.
and when we left, qingaiderhs accompanied me on th phone while i was waiting for th bus.
waited for 8 minutes? YAWNS*
saw MR BILLY TAN in th bus. OO
he have grown more fats on his face? oh, whatevah.

i hate school lahh.
textbooks, workbooks, assessments, teachers, tuitions, waking up early in th morning.
argh. mom have been saying that i'll retain this year.
i guess i wil? but i don't wanna study in th same class with a bunch of kiddys.
HAISH.

I WANT TO SAY I LOVE AL MY BELOVED FRIENDS
WHO HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME RAIN OR SHINE!
MWARKS MWARKS MWARKS! you al are my bunch of great friends. <3

i've always felt so alone.
feeling nostalgic is everyday i had,
that's why hardly could anyone enter my world.
ever since then, bottling up my feelings has become one of my habit.

HAISH.
I AM FEELING SO HATRED AND PISSED OFF !
felt so helpless ! argh.
i've always hated that feeling !
lik i'm not at th fault but have to say "sorry" or i can't speak up for myself.
fuck lahhhhh.
you made me HATE you DISLIK you !
you're just my nobody !
so please shut up ! and it's your fault !
you touched MY stuffs w/o MY permission and do you think everything could be solve by just saying a sorry??
you said that i'm rude and if i am your sister you'll already given me a slap?!
try it and i'll never forgive you.
you have no rights to comment on me cause you are nothing to me ! nothing nothing nothing ! you asshole farktart !
don't always try to scare me, cos i'd only hate you deeper !
and it's not th first time.
i know soon we wil become a FAMILY.
what a shame, feeding on my family !
you have nothing for me to respect for !
aww. and because of you my mood was terribly bad !


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