i felt so hopeless.
i wanna suicide.
but i fear, i didn't have th courage to.
i wanna have my own freedom.
i feel useless.
i'm sucha black sheep.
i am lousy.
i wanna be happy.
i wanna cry.
i wanna bleed.

i wanna start anew.
i wanna be perfect w/o flaws.
i'm just a host of imperfection.

i hope, everything will be just fine.